Walk by Faith

Just as people are in our lives for certain seasons, I believe certain songs are in our lives during certain seasons also.  It seems like God uses people and songs as a way of showing us He is there for us no matter what we are going through.  He has not forgotten about us.  Recently as I have been striving to find that first love I once had, I have fallen back into a time in my life that was very difficult for me.  I feel almost as if it has all started over again.  Not only does it feel like I am going through the same things, but a song that meant so much to me during that time, I have been hearing again over and over.  I feel like it doesn't matter what time of the day it is or when I turn on the radio, "Walk by Faith" by Jeremy Camp is always on.  I remember back to a time when I couldn't pass a certain test and had to retake it, I remember hearing these words each time, "Would I believe you when you would say, your hand will guide my every way. I will walk by faith even when I cannot see because this broken road prepares Your will for me."  Those words really touched me then because I remember thinking that each time I didn't pass that test, it was part of that broken road He has prepared for me and while I was taking that test, I would pray, "God guide my hand."  I know God won't give me more than I can handle, and I just need to be reminded of that sometimes.  This song is such a reminder! "Help me to win my endless fears. You've been so faithful for all my years." During the message today, the pastor talked about letting go of those things in our lives we have no control over and allow God to have control.  He never loses control.  He's always in control. Proverbs 16:9 says, "We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps." WOW! I love this verse because it reminds me that I may make my plans whether it be lesson plans for work, planning for the wedding, for my future, for my next job, and feel as if I am in control, but really God is in control.  He determines my steps, my every move.  He knows what tomorrow holds. He knows what will happen a week from today, a month from today, how my wedding will turn out, struggles that I will have.  He knows it all! He knew before I was ever formed in my mother's womb.  (Jeremiah 1:5) It's amazing to me, to think about how God knows everything about us...down to the very hairs on our head. (Luke 12:7)  When I tell others what I am going through, I sometimes hear, "Why would God do that to you?"  or "How come things like this happened?" With comments like this, I know I have to be the positive one.  I can't fall or give up, I have to be strong and continue to  look to Him no matter what.  PRAY! SEEK Him and follow those plans he has marked out for my life.  I may not know what it is that he has for me or why things happen the way they do, but I do know that God "knows the plans He has for me. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give me a future and a hope."  God wants us to: fight the good fight and finish the race, as well as remain faithful. (2Timothy 4:7)  I know there was a time in my life where I felt like had fought the fight and won it and remained faithful throughout it.  Here lately, however, I feel like that fight is back, but I know I have to continue to fight and remain faithful to Him.  He is in control, and I will continue to pray through this time and follow His lead.  He knows the desires of my heart and has that perfect plan for my life.  All I can do now is take each step in that direction....