I love you more than words can express. As I lay here watching you sleep, I came to realization that things are going to soon change, but I want you to know that my love for you will never change. You will always be my little boy, my first born. There will always be that unique bond between us....that bond that formed the moment I realized I was pregnant with you...then that even stronger bond that formed the moment I kissed your little forehead the day you were born...and now a bond that cannot be broken as I put you to sleep each night and get to snuggle with you almost every day as you fall asleep at nap. I know these little moments will someday end, but I want you to know I will always, always cherish these little moments...these moments you will probably never remember, but I will. Those moments you sit on my lap and want me to read a book over and over again...those moments you say, "huggy" and wrap those small arms around me...those moments you learn something new and repeat it over and over again wanting me to know you know it...those moments you laugh and giggle and never stop talking...our car rides with you when it is just us talking back and forth! These are just a few of the moments I will never forget. There are so many more that I cannot list them all,but I can tell you I write almost every moment down because I never want to forget them...these little moments with my first born child that will forever be special between just me and you. No one will ever replace those moments! And although, I have been super tired lately carrying your new little sibling and even sick at times, I want you to know each evening I fall asleep before you and don't get to put you asleep, and each little moment I don't spend with you, it kills me. I want those moments back so bad and regret knowing that I only have so many moments such as these before you grow up and stop needing your mommy as much and moments that will soon lessen even more as your younger sibling continues to grow in my tummy and even after he or she arrives. I know things are going to change. I know things will not be the same. And although you have been learning the importance of sharing your mommy with your friends, you will soon realize you will always have to share your mommy with another sibling who is here all the time and doesn't leave. And although you may not remember these moments when it was just us, I want you to know I will remember them. I will remember all those little lessons, play ideas, and so much more that I did with just you. I will remember sitting on the floor, no matter how tired I was watching you play and pretending to play along when you would say, "Mommy pay (play)" or "Mommy read this." I will remember those moments. Those are the moments I will forever cherish.
So here I am watching you sleep....watching you hold onto your little mickey...watching you breathe...and you have left me speechless knowing that these moments won 't always be here. So while I am thinking about all these little moments, I wanted to take time to thank you for teaching me how strong God's love really is...thank you for showing me how to love like God loves. Thank you for being you and relying on me as much as you do. Please know no matter how old you get, how independent you get, how busy I get with your friends and other siblings that you can always come to me...you can always share a hug with your mommy. You can always snuggle next to me, sit on my lap, reach for my hair and tell me you love me. Because these are the moments I want to never forget. These are the moments I want you to know that I will forever hold close to my heart. These are the moments that I will always rememberwe and hope that you someday will also get to experience these same type of moments with children of your own.
And although things will change with another sibling, I know you will enjoy growing up having that extra sidekick, that special someone to play with close to your age. I know you will love that little baby so much. I know you already do. I love those moments you realize mommy has a baby in her tummy and you give it (mommy's tummy) kisses and hugs and say, "Hi baby!" That little baby growing inside mommy's tummy is already starting to love and cherish you also! Thanks for already being such a great big brother! (You learned from the best!) Soon you will get to see what it's like being the big brother! And although you may at times get upset or irritated with that younger sibling, I know you you will love that little baby with all your heart! I know you will because mommy has four younger siblings and two older siblings, and although we may not always see eye to eye, I love them with all my heart and am so glad I had them to share my life with, someone always to play with, someone to spoil, someone to talk to, someone to lean on when things got rough, someone to hang out with on holidays as we got older and had families of our own...Those are moments I enjoy(ed) most with my siblings! And although you may never remember being my first born and all those special moments with mommy...that mean so much to her.... I know future moments with your siblings will be the moments you remember and cherish!
Remember, my little man, I love you and cherish each and every moment I have with you! They are special and will always have a special place in my heart! Because every moment with you is a moment I will forever cherish and not take for granted! I love you, my sweet little boy! Never Ever Forget That!
Love,
Mommy
Remember, my little man, I love you and cherish each and every moment I have with you! They are special and will always have a special place in my heart! Because every moment with you is a moment I will forever cherish and not take for granted! I love you, my sweet little boy! Never Ever Forget That!
Love,
Mommy
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