I can't believe it's already June!!! And I didn't post a single blog entry in May. For all of you that are school teachers, you know that May is a very busy month for teachers...not to mention, I had my preschool graduation program to prepare for, my youngest two brothers' graduation, our school's 8th grade graduation and Eli's preschool graduation to attend. Needless to say, it was a very busy month for me; however, that is no excuse. I try to stay focus on what is important in life and keep my focus on the Lord, but sometimes it gets so hard to keep that focus. I am always feeling guilty for not spending enough time with the Lord. I wish I could spend so much more time with Him and I know I can. I just have to pray for motivation and dedication. I have recently realized how low my self esteem gets when I am not focused on the Lord. I want to be there for others and say the right things and be an encouragement for them when needed, but sometimes it's so hard when I don't have a high self esteem and the courage to say the right things. I know it would be so much easier if I focused more on the Lord and spent more time with Him daily. One thing I love about working and the school year is routine. I have my daily routine planned out and usually stick to it. I know my time with the Lord is in my car on the way to school. I can pray out loud and talk to the Lord as if he is seated right next to me in my passenger seat. Then I am refreshed and ready to began my day at work. This summer, I feel like I have lost that connection and am trying to get it back. I wake up in time for Eli and then usually fall back asleep for awhile when instead I could be spending that time with the Lord. I pray and hope that I will find the time to spend with the Lord daily as well as intentionally bring Eli up in a home that is glorifying to HIM!!! I want my home to be a home where others feel comfortable coming to and where others see Him in our lives. I want my home to be comfortable for others and a joy to be in. I pray that this summer, I will focus on the important things in life and the fact that I am on a break...I am taking this break for me...for Eli...and for the Lord. This is my time to not only get in shape physically, but spiritually as well! Summer is my motivation to be the best wife, mom, sister, daughter, and friend that I can be. I want others to know that when I say I will pray for them, I AM PRAYING FOR THEM! I want others to know that Christ lives in me and that I am on fire for HIM! I pray that God will use me this summer and this coming school year! I pray that I can be all that I am called to be and that God is my focus all day, throughout the day. I pray that Eli will grow up to be the man God has called him to be. That I can teach him the things that are important in life, the right morals, and beliefs. I pray that mine and Jason's relationship will be one that he will look up to, a godly relationship that he will someday strive to have. I pray that my nieces and nephews will see that in our relationship as well. And most importantly I pray that each one of my siblings will see that in us and that God will send someone if not us to show them to Him! I pray that each one of them will accept Jesus Christ as their personal Savior! I pray that God will use me...and help me to make an impact in all the lives that I am around this summer and school year! "Here I am, Lord send me All of my life, I make an offering, Here I am, Lord send me, Somehow my story is a part of Your plan, Here I am."
Isaiah 6:8
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us? ”
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